Monday, May 29, 2006
xhellox, xtrm2matt, and me being pissed off
Ah damn... Last saturday and sunday, I was like so totally pissed off at people, so pissed, my stress level exceeded normal... It all started when xhellox abnned someone because he was posting obscene. He was just fooling around and a simple kick is fine, but she banned her as well. I kicked-banned her, then she kicked-benned me back. I lost my respect for her that day.... Same as her as well... Because of that God gave me a sign, a sign that really shocked me.
Last Sunday, Xtrm2matt hacked the pROSEboards. All of us were so pissed off that we got angry at matt... I personally was really angry at matt, so angry that i felt like cursing... Prime is really angry because matt hacked the boards, but it's a good thing they made peace... It's a good thing the euROSE guys were there to give us temporary shelter in their boards for the time being... ^_^
Well, there is always light at the end of the tunnel they say... I know that xhellox will forgive me because of my hypocrisy... I'll just wait for her conscience to catch up on her, for my my conscience has catched up on me... I know everything will be ok in the end. 'ne? ^_^
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I read the book, but now watched the movie, but I tell you this, The Da Vinci Code is not to be feared... Materialized @ 2:50 PM
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note to self: Don't to be a stupid moron when your gf is inside a virtual chat channel, something bad will happen. Materialized @ 2:33 PM
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Yawn... Teh flamers are on teh loose once again in teh pROSEboards... As in, they are surprised about eldeon in July as well as Tala wipe. Why can't they just stfu for once and think for a second? They think nothing more but negatives and nothing more.... Materialized @ 12:47 PM
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Always said I would know where to find love, Materialized @ 8:31 PM
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Yawn... Saturday was fun but sunday... especially sunday night, I have mixed emotions... Materialized @ 12:53 PM
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Thursday, May 25, 2006
After like 4 months, I get my just reward, a place in pROSE history... I may be remembered as a defender of the boards, often hated because I support LU, however, I was also a catalyst, because I helped the european players or ROSE, since euROSE ceased to exist, the players there don't have ahome, and I was the one who suggested that the euROSE guys should play here, and although there are ups and downs along the way, at least I am able to do my part, because of that I was rewarded. ^_^
I'm gonna thank God, Jesus, all the Angels and all the Saints for giving me this opportunity... God is good all the time and vice versa.. Next, I'll thank, my friends, especially my girlfriend, Alquanna, my clanmates in Ethereal and my friends in pROSE for supporting me all the way... Also, I would like to thank the GMs and Mods, for they influenced me in doing what is right and what is good. Finally, I would like to thank the euROSE players, because without them, I wouldn't be in the place where I am right now. ^_^
Arigato gozaimasu! Thanks everybody, I couldn't done it without you guys... ^_^Monday, May 22, 2006
[Part 1]
I'm the son of raging love
The Jesus of Suburbia
From the bible of none of the above
On a steady diet of soda pop and Ritalin
No one ever died for my sins in hell
As far as I can tell
At least the ones I got away with
And there's nothing wrong with me
This is how I'm supposed to be
In a land of make believe
That don't believe in me
Get my television fix sitting on my crucifix
The living room or my private womb
While the moms and brads are away
To fall in love and fall in debt
To alcohol and cigarettes and Mary Jane
To keep me insane and doing someone else's cocaine
And there's nothing wrong with me
This is how I'm supposed to be
In a land of make believe
That don't believe in me
[Part 2: City Of The Damned]
At the center of the Earth
In the parking lot
Of the 7-11 where I was taught
The motto was just a lie
It says home is where your heart is
But what a shame
Cause everyone's heart
Doesn't beat the same
It's beating out of time
City of the dead
At the end of another lost highway
Signs misleading to nowhere
City of the damned
Lost children with dirty faces today
No one really seems to care
I read the graffiti
In the bathroom stall
Like the holy scriptures of a shopping mall
And so it seemed to confess
It didn't say much
But it only confirmed that
The center of the earth
Is the end of the world
And I could really care less
City of the dead
At the end of another lost highway
Signs misleading to nowhere
City of the damned
Lost children with dirty faces today
No one really seems to careeeeee
[Part 3: I don't care]
I don't care if you don't
I don't care if you don't
I don't care if you don't care
[x4]
I don't careeeeeeeeee
Everyone is so full of shit
Born and raised by hypocrites
Hearts recycled but never saved
From the cradle to the grave
We are the kids of war and peace
From Anaheim to the middle east
We are the stories and disciples
Of the Jesus of suburbia
Land of make believe
And it don't believe in me
Land of make believe
And I don't believe
And I don't care!
I don't care! [x4]
[Part 4: Dearly beloved]
Dearly beloved are you listening?
I can't remember a word that you were saying
Are we demented or am I disturbed?
The space that's in between insane and insecure
Oh therapy, can you please fill the void?
Am I retarded or am I just overjoyed
Nobody's perfect and I stand accused
For lack of a better word, and that's my best excuse
[Part 5: Tales of another broken home]
To live and not to breathe
Is to die In tragedy
To run, to run away
To find what you believe
And I leave behind
This hurricane of fucking lies
I lost my faith to this
This town that don't exist
So I run
I run away
To the light of masochist
And I leave behind
This hurricane of fucking lies
And I walked this line
A million and one fucking times
But not this time
I don't feel any shame
I won't apologize
When there ain't nowhere you can go
Running away from pain
When you've been victimized
Tales from another broken home
You're leaving...
You're leaving...
You're leaving...
Ah you're leaving home...Thoughts about the Da Vinci Code
As in, the book is mainly fiction... The only things real there are the paintings, some of the places and the organizations.... The People as well as the "mysteries" being solved there is just made up...
I've also analyzed the book, it was really similar to Deception Point, especially about the identity of the "Teacher" Who turns out to be Robert Langdon's old friend... But the main difference is that in DVC, it strikes more on Religion, while on Deception Point, it focuses on the military and all the depts. of the U.S. Goverment that hides secrets...
I short, the Da Vinci code, I say is a great work of fiction. Me thinks the Catholic Church as well as some government officials are too damn overacting because of this... This is just plain fiction. Nothing bad will happen when people read the thing.... <_<Near heartbrokeness.... and redemption....
Yes, I say it because it's true... Last saturday and Sunday, my gf was pissed off at me since I showed her my... "green" side, with some friends from europe....
almost the whole day we never talked... Then she texted me, and told me that she felt really bad... I asked for her forgiveness and I was crying at that time because I don't wanna lose something dear to me and close to my heart....
However, during mass, she texted me and said, she forgived me....
It was a sign of good relief...
Well, things returned to normal after that, but one thing is certain, if a certain guy named naruto arrives, next I'll stay silent... XDTuesday, May 16, 2006
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Which TSUBASA RESERVoir CHRoNiCLE character are you?
You are Sakura.Compassionate and caring, you try to take others under your wing; if someone seems hurt, you do your best to cheer them up.Yet, you're lonely; not very many people understand you. This pains you deeply, but you take care not to let it show.
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:P :P :P hehe... ^^Thursday, May 11, 2006
It really ticks me off... they just whine and complain.... Why can they just be patient for one freaking minute?! Yawn... I'm dead pissed. -_-Wednesday, May 10, 2006
Always thought I'd be ready and strong enough,
But some times I just felt I could give up.
But you came and changed my whole world now,
I'm somewhere I've never been before.
Now I see, what love means.
It's so unbelievable,
And I don't want to let it go,
Something so beautiful,
Flowing down like a waterfall.
I feel like you've always been,
Forever a part of me.
And it's so unbelievable to finally be in love,
Somewhere I'd never thought I'd be.
In my heart, in my head, it's so clear now,
Hold my hand you've got nothing to fear now,
I was lost and you've rescued me some how-.
I'm alive, I'm in love you complete me,
And I've never been here before.
Now I see, what love means.
It's so unbelievable,
And I don't want to let it go,
Something so beautiful,
Flowing down like a waterfall.
I feel like you've always been,
Forever a part of me.
And it's so unbelievable to finally be in love,
Somewhere I'd never thought I'd be.
When I think of what I have, and this chance I nearly lost,
I cant help but break down, and cry.
Ohh yeah, break down and cry.
It's so unbelievable,
And I don't want to let it go,
Something so beautiful,
Flowing down like a waterfall.
I feel like you've always been,
Forever a part of me.
And it's so unbelievable to finally be in love,
Somewhere I'd never thought I'd be.
Now I see, what love meansMonday, May 08, 2006
Last of teh 1st 5 episodes of cardcaptor sakura that I'll be posting... Enjoy.. ^_^
As in, last saturday, me and my friends in pROSE went out to meet each other and watch MI3, at the same time my GF was there as well, so we considered that as a date....
Now, we didn't get to finish the movie (bummer... <_<), however, I was able to get some cardcaptor sakura collectibles... XD
It's was fun and I was really happy...
But last sunday night, I was listening to our parish priest's sermon, he was really serious about vocations... Then I remembered all the signs, the symbols, everything... As if God was really giving me a choice... Either get married or become a priest...
At first it was hard to decide, since I don't wanna break people hearts, especially my Girlfriend... I prayed and talked to God about it... And I kept thinking, what should I do?! I was totally breaking down, and really crying at that time...
Then, I figured, I asked my girlfriend through text... She told me that I should go where my heart desires...
I thought to myself, am I thinking so much that I forgot that my emotions are important? Am I taking this more seriously than usual? So, I meditated and thoguht about it for a while... Then, my heart told me, choose the one, that is right for you... Then, images of both christ and clara appeared... I had to choose, but I have decided, I must be with whom I love more than anyone except God, who is none other than clara...
I reflected on my decision, then I realized something very beautiful, it doesn't matter if you become a priest or not... All that matters is that you're happy with what you are now and what you choose... No matter how dire the consequences are, If your happy with everything that happened and what you have, then God is happy... ^_^
Gos is good, alll the time and vice versa.... ^_Wednesday, May 03, 2006
I need a new life
I'm not blind cuz I see the truth and the lies.
Heed my words
Listen to advice
You don't need to run away and take your life.
No, can't live this way..
So you go for miles and miles
And miles and miles and miles
Destination nowhere
No means or how,
So you go for miles and miles
Soul searching, Soul searching.... for how.
Just take a look around at the faces that you meet
Everybody's got their own pains like you and me
Never fall away...
So you go for miles and miles
And miles and miles and miles
Destination nowhere
No means or how,
So you go for miles and miles
Soul searching, Soul searching....
Whatever you do choose life
The thoughts on your mind choose life
Wherever you go choose life
Choose life.
So you go for miles and miles
And miles and miles and miles
Destination nowhere
No means or how,
So you go for miles and miles
Soul searching, Soul searching....
