Ok. fuck that last post of mine. It was out of context and out of rage. i apologize.
anyway, in a sort of related topic, I went to mass last sunday by myself. Amazingly, the topic in the homily was about of patience and forgiveness. Aside from the parables, teachings and all that other stuff, the homily made me think; Am I really that patient and forgiving to others?
let us define forgiveness first.
according to Wikipedia(of all places mind you)(2008), Forgiveness is the process of ceasing to feel resentment, indignation or anger against another person for a perceived offense, difference or mistake, or ceasing to demand punishment or restitution.
What does this mean? in the simplest terms, you stopped hating the person that sinned against you and you sort of offered him another chance to redeem himself, making both you and that other person feel relieved and in a way, glad that you just lifted a heavy burden from his heart as well as yours.
I realized that... Well, although it's fine to get angry at them, but I should keep that anger at a shallow pace, rather than take it too seriously, hide it and keep it as a heavy burden on your soul. Later on this burden will continually haunt you until eventually you will either break down and become emo or do something stupid.
Personally, I dont want that to happen. especially that, even though my parents act like faggots sometimes, I gotta learn to understand them and try to adapt to their needs. maybe it's my overwhelming unwarranted self-importance is what keeps me separate from my family...
In the end, I told myself, bah forget about it. It's not like crying over spilled milk will do anything. I told myself, forgive them, they're just doing their job after all, although I still tend to be distant from them. But I know one day we'll really get to heal the wounds and become closer as parent and child.
also, side note: this my first post wherein I added tags. I'll edit my older posts later with those tags. (read: 150 posts ('')(X@_________@X)('') )
p.s.: I'll be making another new layout for this blog. It'll be based on Yuno of Hidamari Sketch, but it will still entail the tranquil mood of the current layout. ^_^
p.p.s.: I gots an exam and tons of work to do in the coming weeks... Pray for me that I could survive through it all... @___@
I'm just me. That's all you need to know~ :D
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