I'll cut to the chase. Apparently, we won't be able to defend this term. We have invested too much time in our system that we ended up not being able to do much about our document. *Sighs*. Looks like we'll end up taking another term in the school then.
But on a lighter note, apparently instead of me feeing sad, I actually felt more... relieved. Could it be because our adviser saved us from the humiliation of defense? Would it be because we were actually given another shot at actually completing our thesis? Is it because it is God indirectly telling me that it's not yet time for me to leave th university for now?
I could think of many reasons why I feel that way. Actually I find it quite weird for me to feel like that. Maybe that's because I tend to end up accepting the mistakes that I (and as well as my thesismates) have done and have actually learned a thing or two from them. Or maybe it's because it's pointless arguing about whose fault is it that the entire group failed for the second time.
Heh. So many questions, 'ne? But meh, it made me think that God does have a funny way of doing things. Apparently though, he does things in accordance to what you have done to deserve it. The consequence is determined by the amount of effort done on one task, apparently. In our case, we did a lot, but it seems it wasn't enough, therefore God just gave us our "just reward", but at the same time indirectly, he tells us, not to lose hope, and keep trying to succeed. We just need to do more effort.
Well, quoting Alanis Morissette in her song "Ironic":
"Well life has a funny way of sneaking up on you
When you think everything's okay and everything's going right
And life has a funny way of helping you out when
You think everything's gone wrong and everything blows up
In your face"
I guess she is right anyway. Life and God have funny ways of doing things. No point in crying over spilled milk if it happened anyway. I guess the only thing I can do right now is just move on, face the consequences and work harder in order to really set things straight and, finally, be able to make things right.
Just hope and pray for us. Pray that we may be able to find the strength and the determination to finish what we have started and do what is needed to do. I hope and pray that by the end of next term, we'll finally be able to graduate.
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