Wednesday, March 09, 2011
Doubt... and Reflection.
I just came back from a long time of reflection. But before I get to those that I thought about during that time, right now there is some sort of cloud of doubt regarding our thesis.
With less than two weeks left and with so much to do, I've realized that our group has been doing this at a really slow pace. As much as I want my groupmates to work faster and focus more on thesis, I don't want them to burn out because of that. But at the same time it has to be done so that by the time defense comes, we can really defend our thesis. What a dilemma lol.
Right now I thought of several solutions, such as doing quick testing ASAP and to give some story work to some friends. But although this will speed up the process of the writing of documentation, I still doubt that we can still finish everything by next next week. But I hope that this will suffice in at least appeasing our thesis adviser. Looks like it's now time for me to find means and ways of fixing this mess. I hope and pray that me and my thesismates can get through this mess.
Anyway... Back to my points of reflection, it actually included some things regarding thesis. However, what I really wanna reflect right now is something more... spiritual. As in, I've been asking these questions all this time since earlier:
- Have I been a "good person"?
- Am I really following God's will?
- Am I acting like a man of faith and not like a hypocrite?
- Am I too bashful and full of pride (And has removed his policy of humility)?
- Have I forgotten to become generous to others?
- Do I have respect for everyone around me?
Yeah. These things are and others are in my thoughts, though I will reflect later about these and other concerns as well. Honestly, I want to have a clearer mind before I can tackle the other problems that plague me right now, and right now would be a good time to do so.
Yeah. That's all, for now. Might be writing an even longer posted in the coming days~
Labels: academics, Doubts, personal stuff, reflections
Materialized @ 8:10 PM